im sick to my stomach
im in love with someone thats 5 thousand miles away. sick minded right? if someone trails on your mind daily for the past 3 years is more than i have ever bargained for. i mean i have my own shit to do, and he has his. but lingering on my mind day after day after day is excruciating especially when there is no way to get to that treasure that you’re dying for. i try to tell myself i can do better without you, but reality is there is no way im leaving you. you said you loved me, and i didnt believe you. i thought it was for the better, but theres no lying to yourself. this emotional bullshit hits me like a fucking train harder each day. the closest thing i have to them is my imagination, clear canvas face painting in my mind. perfection at the foot of what i could have but probably wont ever attain.
im a fucking mess
i fucking love you
<3 <3 <3 :]
thank you. this made my day like 70x brighter :3
not at all actually, THANK YOU <3 :]
